who am i

i have survived quite a unique life thus far. 

i recently became acutely aware that during my formative years i was relatively deprived, and, while arguably well-educated, misdirected in many ways.  i'm smart, but lack many disciplines that most people see as basics of life.  i have some difficulty with mental processes by normal standards, and for some time have suspected asperger's syndrome or the like.  day-to-day tasks are sometimes simply beyond my capability. 

in an effort to explore my histories, untie some knots and shed some light on my origins (for the benefit of certain persons [hi nadja]), i will now attempt to pull some pieces of myself together in one place. 

keep in mind that i do not intend on displaying accomplishments or keeping an active account of circumstances; my purpose here is to expose some of the grit and soot that i myself have until recently forgotten or ignored.